This year I'm not decorating the house or giving presents that I haven't made. I'm not in the Kwanzaa spirit, nor am I rebelling against the materialistic system that turns a holy day from being about the celebration of The Emmanuel who has come to Save us to being about buying a lot of gifts for people who are barely liked and going into debt.
Yay, holidays?
The whole idea of Christmas has become another way to give me stress. I hate being stressed. It makes my hair fall out. I can't eat or sleep right. It harshes my buzz, man. So right now, I'm stripping my life down to the things I can't live without.
I cannot live without:
- God
- Family
- Basic Life Functions
- Love
- Reading
- Writing
- Joy
Kinda sorta in that order. I can live without:
- "Friends"
- Money
- Ambition
- Politics
- Bills
- Trying to provide everything
- Doing things because everyone does
- Feeling like crap because of being treated like crap
- Anyone who can't do their job competently (It's a recession, employers. Good employees are a dime a dozen.)
Now I feel as if my life is calming down. There are too many distractions keeping me from being content with what I have. These distractions keep me from enjoying the simplest things, but with a stripped down life, I can finally focus on the important things. I can breathe. I can live. And living feels good.
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